Bababa ba?

It’s not about the traffic I get. I don’t care how many people read my blog. I don’t care if I get linked by my Mom, by other bigtime bloggers, or by you. I don’t care what other people think of my blog, I don’t care how people may label it or see it, and I don’t care if people dropped by my blog from my Mom’s.

It’s not about the attention I receive. Rants like these are like breaks between my blog entries. Recently I just blog about my faith, school, thoughts and whatev. And I know few people sincerely read what I write (judging by the comments). But it’s not flattering, really, that your blog stats usually shoot up whenever you rant about controversial statements.

It’s not about what you think. I don’t have to change what you perceive. In this blog of mine it’s about what I think. Yes the comments section are open for discussion, but in the end, the entries and thoughts are still mine and mine alone. It’s up to you if you want to believe in what I write. I just write about what I think and what I believe, and what others think end up in the comments (or even upgraded to entries such like the previous one). This blog is mine, the comments sections are partially yours.

It’s just about me proclaiming to the world how much I love my Mom. Let’s face it, if you receive a nasty comment about your Mom, the first thing you would think of after much comforting is how to find out who that person is and to retaliate. And that I just did. I know people may say that she just let it go, that she shouldn’t think about it much. Well, she can let those comments go, but I won’t. How about you? What would you do if your Mom who just wanted to do good was attacked in such a manner?

Why are you out to get my Mom? Whoever you or you guys are, I know you are just out there, lurking, reading (or maybe even commenting again!). Really, I can only find a few entries that my Mom wrote that’s flame-bait (except for the follow-ups to my entries, of course). She continues to write in positive tones to share what she sincerely believes in. So what’s to be so negative about?

Is this personal? If it weren’t, why would the comments be so specific in the first place?  If they did not really know my Mom, why would the commenters know so specific concepts (”We have been trying to change the image of the Filipino women in the internet“), and so specific people (”I know of other mommy bloggers who laugh behind her back because of her pseudonym,” “Nireklamo na kita doon sa mga ibang co-founders na paano ka naman naging kasama doon?“)? I don’t think those are just random comments from random passersbys who just happen to read a random entry and formulated nasty comments like those. Comments like those really do sound too personal to be written by nobodies.

What? Can’t stand my mom being popular? Try blogging or commenting then with your real name, and do what you can to be more popular than her. Because frankly, we don’t care about how popular we are. We just write and write and write and write, and the people just come in because we write good and in my Mom’s case, positively. Well you can continue the nasty negativity, but comments like those will just continue to make you self-destruct. The only thing that’s preventing that from totally happening is that you don’t tell us who you really are, which is for me, very cowardly by the way.

So what now? I don’t know, and I don’t care. What I’ll do is I’ll just continue to write about what I think and life will continue to go on. It will go on even with all the haters out there, and my Mom can just continue writing and being positive and being herself. I’ll just be the one to provide the front-liners in battle.