Besides random Bible passages and naturally occuring beautiful phenomena, God speaks to me through song. That’s one of the reasons why I always keep my iPod on shuffle mode, because who knows, God may have planned that seemingly random playlist of mine.
And this afternoon He did not fail me. While Josie and I were hanging out this afternoon, earphones plugged into our ears, Josie asked me to turn up the volume in one of the songs. She almost burst into tears as she felt it was Kuya Jess speaking to her through the song. And indeed, it did feel like it was Him singing the song, not only to her, but to me, to you, to all of us.
This song has been one of the more moving songs in my life. Some of you may dismiss this as one of the typical “I’d die for you” emo songs. But this song moved me too much because there were people who did die. Besides Kuya Jess who died for all of us a few thousand years ago, there’s the little angel in heaven whom we all now know as Michael.
This song was introduced to me in the eve of Steph, my brother’s girlfriend’s debut, which coincidentally was the night when my sister in law was due for Michael’s birth. My sister Chato was to sing this song for Steph for the 18 songs part of her debut, and since the song was relatively new, we doubted the band would know how to play it. So I ended up studying how to play the song on guitar that same night before playing it in front of a huge crowd. I somehow forgot about the song after that event.
I was reminded of it 2 months after, when the inevitable happened. I started to call Michael the little angel (as referenced by my sidebar text which I refused to change ever since), and as the song title was about an angel, naturally I looked it up, downloaded it and put it in my iPod. And it struck me, as the lyrics went naturally with what I was feeling at that time. I was rebuilding my shattered faith caused by an unfortunate event, and I realized that as Michael was sent to Heaven, there was another One who saved us even if it meant sending Him to Heaven.
I was planning to blog about it back then, but since it was one of the hardest days for me to blog, I went against it. Eventually the song found it’s way to the mainstream airwaves and people kept on requesting it morning afternoon evening in my favorite radio station until I grew tired of it, and I somehow forgot about the song, and forgot about my plans of blogging about it.
And 7 months later, in a wonderful rainy coffee afternoon, the song was reintroduced to me. And now, I just wrote about it.
Enjoy and God bless. :)
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel
When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can’t replace
And now that I’m strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I’ll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up for you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
And seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I’ll be the one
I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up for you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you’re my, you’re my, my-ay-ay, my true love, my whole heart
Please don’t throw that away
Cuz I’m here for you
Please don’t walk away and,
Please tell me you’ll stay, woah stay woah
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I’ll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up for you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up for you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heave
