Bababa ba?

Sinusoidal has always been the adjective I use to describe what had been. Saying that things have been roller coaster rides has always been a cliché, and I just want to be nerdy just like that.

Anyways. Shall I describe 2008 besides using the word sinusoidal? Ang bitin at ang nerdy pakinggan e. Heehee.

So here goes.

2008 has been the year of reclusive blogging. Compared to 2007 wherein I had around 275 public blog posts, I wrote only 122 public blog entries this 2008. I think it’s because I found it more comforting to write in my Multiply site, wherein I could easily cater to, write about, and write to people whom I know better. And another thing, my entries have been a little more personal. So took advantage of Multiply’s option to filter who could actually read my entries. Which I found very very satisfying.

2008 has been the year of ficlets, short stories, reflections, music and personal stories. Writing has always been an escape from reality for me. So whenever I found myself in a real life situation wherein I wanted to escape a while, I write about it in a “fictional” point of view. It’s therapeutic for me, as it can take some of the pain away (because you can actually control what happens in a fictional account, unlike in real life). But if I can’t really express myself in writing, I express myself in song. And that explains the numerous copy-pasted lyrics.

And that is because 2008 has been the year of hello and goodbye, and hello, and goodbye, and hello, and finally a goodbye. My heart has been stuck in a harmonic oscillator this 2008. I tried to keep my spring constant high, but the attached person has applied too much force. And eventually it hurt too much. I allowed the spring to break, and my heart ended up breaking too. I don’t know why I held on that long.

2008 has been the year of faith. While enduring all the emotional pain (wow how emo!) I had nothing else to hold on to but my faith. I was not allowed to talk about what has been happening to me emotionally, because I was in a forbidden relationship, to begin with. God has always been there for me, and that’s why I kept on writing about Him.

2008 has been the year of academic adjustment and breaking in. I was finally able to take up regular Physics subjects, and of course, being the Physics noob that I am, some parts ended up as epic fails. Figuratively and literally. I dropped 1 subject, and then failed another, and then crawled my way through a few others. But I did do good in a few subjects though (I had 6 line of 1s, two of which were flat 1s). And I got myself in a laboratory! And most importantly, I got myself a whole lot of new friends, my Physics friends. :D

2008 has been the year of friendship. Friendships have been tested, celebrated, and made. Because of the relationship I was in back then, I started asking myself who my friends really were, and I started avoiding people (which I really really regret doing). We were both trapped in this bubble of insecurity wherein we thought that everyone was against us. But then coming to my senses and ending that relationship, I sought out my friends. I went out with them, had lunch with them, went out of town with them, went videoke-ing with them, went drinking with them, and so on. And I’m so happy I realized what has been happening and didn’t allow these people to fade away from my life. And oh, I made a whole lot of new friends too! (as mentioned in the previous paragraph).

2008 has been the year of family. Every family goes through tough times, and it’s these tough times that make the family stronger. Each member might not see eye to eye sometimes, but at the end of the day, these are the people who will truly love you no matter what.

2008 has been the year of love. From family, friends, God. :)

2008 has been the year of happiness, sadness, blissfulness, cheerlessness, joyfulness, heartbrokenness, etc etc. O diba, up and down?

So being up and down, and as I mentioned in the first paragraph, I can now say that 2008 has been the year of sinusoids.

And I’m very very thankful that this year will be ending with the sinusoid at it’s highest peak. And I do hope it’ll stay there longer than I expect it to.

Farewell, 2008.

Hello, 2009. :)